Staying humble is easy when you write about it. 

Living humble is very complicated. 

Living humble means, no judging allowed. You cant be the person who says, "I think that guy needs a hair cut". The minute that you start thinking you are better than someone else, that is when you have lost perspective on your recovery.

This is something that happens all the time and when I come back to earth, to the real world, I remember I am nobody. I am not special. I don't get to be first in line just because I am in recovery.  I often find life more difficult than it should be at times because the people around me undoubtably know I am in recovery. I am treated as if I were an eggshell, with everyone. No one wants to take my problems on, and no one can but me.

In recovery.

That means I can go out of recovery at any given second and let everyone around me down, most of all, let myself down.

I know I am no better than anyone. 

I am paying the price today for my past. There is no doubt about it.

It will probably go on for a while. How long, that's not up to me.

I can only try to do the next right thing.